Casey Payne is Dead - Immortality Achievement Unlocked

I will call this the one thing I was after. I've "merged with the Dao" (Achieved Daoist Immortality).

I'd tell you "how" I did it except for... reading through the posts on this page it seems as though I've made it quite clear. This doesn't mean that the physical body, known as Casey is gone or that I've gotten any "special powers." It it means is that I have a "unified mind."

So... I still have a passport with Casey Payne on it. A drivers license. A mother who will call me Casey. And all of these things. Actually, "I" don't have them, but I understand that there are minds out there who will associate the physical body with "Casey" and not the 400 Year Daoist Wizard that I really am (sorry... was). lol

Who am I?

The problem lies in the question. The question puts up walls, puts up boundaries. These walls and boundaries are not real, even though your language and your culture and your mind tell you they are so, that is a lie. They are not so.

In fact, you totally shouldn't take my word for it. I don't even exist. You need to take YOUR word for it. Through experience and study. If you're ready for it, this book should break the inside of your mind.

I am leaving as many breadcrumbs as possible leading you to where you really want to be (totally free).

If you have questions about any of this feel free to reach out to me or meet me in person. I know this sounds "crazy" but it is not. If you think it's "crazy" that is OK. Walk away. Just go back to your world of this and that. I truly hope you have fun there. If you're looking for the "out." It's right in front of you (it always has been and always will be). You just need to exercise your awareness.

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Renewed Focus for this Blog

So that last post generated quite a bit of discussion. After having talked to some friends/family (via email and phone) and reflecting on it a bit, I guess there was some mania at play there. I'm still TOTALLY serious about the name change, but I'm no longer in any kind of hurry to do it.

What I'm Going To Do With This Blog Now

The two things I thought I could do with this blog were talk about the names and identity (as I research the subject some more) and post stories from the life of Casey Abbott Payne (the life that existed before everything was getting archived by the web).

Seems like a nice combo to me.

If you want to hang around for that cool.

344/366 - still trying to kill casey

Maybe I can pull it off before I hit 366! Wouldn't that be amazing! I'll give it the old (I didn't go to) college try.

I figured out what day I was on using this website.

What Do You Mean "Kill" Casey?

Allow me to explain as my mind wasn't in the right place to explain it before. I essentially want to rid myself of the Casey identity. This isn't because I don't like Casey. Casey is/was an awesome dude! I just want to create a persona that's 100% mine.

For example, there is no association with:

Driving that train, high on cocaine,
Mil Town Jones YOU BETTER, watch your speed.
Trouble ahead, trouble behind,
And you know that notion just crossed my mind.

Mil Town and the sunshine band

Mil Town at bat

Or hundreds of other Mil Town Kid's out there

Although there is one Casey I'm super fond of:

Casey Tries Too Hard

Another problem I have with Casey is that he tries too hard to live in the "real world." The world of having a proper job and having all the things normal people have. miltownkid doesn't give a fuck about any of that stuff. miltownkid relentlessly pursues his dreams and the shit he's passionate about 100% of the time. Casey is the guy who takes miltownkid away from his passions. Casey has lost the fight completely. Just one more thing to do...

Legal Name Change

I'm going to legally change my name to miltownkid. Once that happens there is no balancing two identities (a professional and personal one). I'm going to see if I can pull that off in the 22 days I have left. Once that happens Casey will be an alias for miltownkid used for people who can't handle calling me miltownkid. :)

8/366 - I'm Immortal

Follow miltownkid.com to get back on the trail.

Peace & Love

7/366 - Not Sure If Should Continue

I'm not getting any feedback, plus... Casey is pretty much dead to me right now. I don't feel like keeping up the persona. Guess I have to for just a WEEE bit longer. I just don't feel like writing about it. There's so much work to be done!

5/366 - Turning On My Light

So... I've been a daoist since I was about... 14 years old. Traditionally in daoism you're told to dim your light, hide your jade and all that fun stuff. So... That's what I did my best to do. Turns out that my dimmed light is brighter than most people trying to shine. There's really no reason to try to shine. We're all bodies of light and... once you're able to see that everyone shines (even the dark ones, they shine with dark light. :) ) Here's a quick photo I took of me shining (it's WAY cooler when I'm walking through the hood with no coat on staring everyone down. TRUST!):



Seriously. No one on the planet has swagger like me. You'll see. I'm from outer space. Another race. Already in first place.

What I picked up today was a pair of T.I.'s shoes (what!? You didn't know TI had a shoe?) and this fly embroidered white shirt. BLACK + WHITE = GREY

I'm in first place daoist style.

Chapter 8:

The best are like water
bringing help to all
without competing
choosing what others avoid
hence approaching the Tao
dwelling with earth
thinking with depth
helping with kindness
speaking with truth
governing with peace
working with skill
moving with time
and because they don't compete
they aren't maligned

There is no competition. The only competition that exists is an inner battle with yourself. Once you merge the multiple personalities you have and your inner and outer universe you're #1.

Stop competing and you win the game.

FUCK! I just lost. :(

Since I've already lost, I'd like to point out that I really like this video and song with 50 Cent and The Game:


"Hate it or love it the underdog's on top
And I'm gonna shine homie until my heart stop"

FUCK! 50 Cent is a Daoist too! I wonder who is teacher is. Probably the same ONE as "me"...

4/366 - GO TO SLEEP

I only slept for an hour last night. Had energy ALL DAY! Got a little sleepy near the end of the day. Then I ate 4 oranges and a pear. It was delicious, but turned out being a bad move because I ended up running home to get the toilet from the bus stop (fruit ran straight through me!)

I was manic today. I bought the crew lunch $70 some dollars then I did a $14 dollar tip. Bought some new kicks (Black and White Addidas joints to match my Black Horse Shit and Addidas pants) $32 and I got a haircut/shave in the mall (I feel like I slept through that... I'm not sure).

You know those Chinese that do the massages at Mayfair? I'm going to tell them to open a shop in the Grand Avenue. If it happens, you know who did it.

Today was the first day I worked for Siide.com. I'm operating the Twitter and doing some stuff with Craig's list.

I was suppose to be focusing on Black Horse Tai Chi all day today, but I only dedicated like an hour because... I wasn't being very good at being focused. I'll do better next Wednesday. My TASKMASTER for Black Horse Tai Chi said the message I sent them was good. I also talked to someone about filming a tai chi VS kick boxing video and they were excited about it. I'm going to do a bunch of tai chi vs videos (Muay tai, Judo, karate, etc.) Will be F.R.E.S.H.

I had 4 beers today. I'm not suppose to be drinking beers. I'm going to stop for a while. Google "Go to sleep" and this came up:


Eminem seems a little angry in this song. I wonder it was for. NOT ME! I got no beef with M&Ms. I love their Chocolate centers. I like the ones with peanuts too!

Wait... DMX!!!! I LOVE HIM! He's SUPER bipolar! lol He's one of my heros. What does DMX stand for? I never thought about that... Domes Melt Xylophones.

DIE MOTHERFUCKAS DIE!

Fucking mother fuckers...